February 2012
Anonymous asked: I don't want to sound rude, but I don't think Trevor really likes you, I think he's using you as someone to pass the time with. He doesn't ever seem to want to be with you in public and quite frankly, he just seems uninterested all together. All I'm saying is be careful.
The only reason I remembered what today was is my calendar.
I made a calendar in summer school for BCIS and I put notes on all the important dates. Not once have I thought about today’s significance until after stepping out of the shower and looking at the wall.
To some people, this is more senseless crap you don’t care about, but to me it means everything.
What I didn’t...
Keerigan Scott Rudd
I love the shit out of you.
You have just taken the stress load of this week from a 50 to a 10.
I know it’s just playing guitar for our set Friday, but it means a lot for you to help out the cause.
Now to finish my set list so you can learn the songs.
THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU.
2/24
School was pretty mundane and monotonous, as per usual.
The weather was absolutely magnificent so that was a plus.
I got to sleep in A2 and part of A3 and then I began working on some filler pieces for my senior recital. I started Venetian Boat song which shouldn’t take more than a couple weeks at the most!
Went home and whatnot then had the chamber show:
It was so much fun but I...
What I want to tell you?
It’s finally happened.
But you don’t understand how massive this is for me, and I don’t know if you really care.
But it’s a big deal, and it’s mostly thanks to you.
And to conclude my tumbling for the day,
at least now I understand why I’m so scared.
And it just makes the fear a million times worse.
I haven't made a real post in awhile,
mainly because things have been so crazy.
I’ve been stressed to the max and my skin/weight is far from under control.
But, I got new proactiv, started tanning as of last night, have been eating healthier and will start working out every Monday and Friday starting next week.
These chamber practices have been long and kinda strenuous, so I’m hoping our hard work will pay off tonight...
Mom: What's wrong?
My mind: I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore.
My mind: The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends.
My mind: I'm constantly feeling alone.
My mind: I'm starting to look at myself different.
My mind: Nothing feels the same anymore.
My mind: I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do.
My mind: I haven't been eating that much yet I'm hungry all the time.
My mind: I feel like no one cares bout me.
My mind: I just wanna sleep all day and never wake up.
Me: Oh nothing I'm fine.
It's weeks like this
When I’m really fucking horny that I wish I wasn’t a virgin, because that would make things so much easier.
But no, I want to be all romantic and shit and wait.
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Fine,
body, I’ll give you sleep, but only 30 minutes worth.
Then I will finish.
Goodnight, for now.
I’ll be back.
I honestly just want to go upstairs and go to bed.
But I won’t, because for some stupid fucking reason, I want to do well in Music Theory.
Fuck this shit.
UGH.
All The Things You Are arrangement
Bach Chorale
Schoenberg Atonal piece
Reflections over all 3
Memorize (again) violin solo for singing
Study Tess of the d’Urbervilles
I have from now until 5:15.
I already want to give up, but I won’t.
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And that all too familiar
Feeling of self hate, regret, and hopelessness creeps back inside.
I’m full of negativity and I’m ready to explode. I wish the rec center were open because I would love to run out this frustration.
Too many things are thrashing about in my head, but the effects numb me enough to where if I lay down, I’m instantly lulled to sleep.
But there will be no sleeping tonight,...
Bon Iver
Is filling the silence in my room tonight.
The original Album that got me into him 6 years ago.
For Emma, Forever Ago.
This is a blank kind of evening; not happy, a hint of lamentation, a bit of curiosity, but a helping of hopefulness.
Goodnight everyone, I genuinely hope every one of you has sweet dreams tonight and that things start looking up.
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